12 Feb 2011
Warning: Mild nudity.
But there's always this one question
that keeps me up at night.
Are you my greatest love,
or disappointment in my life?
Are you a heartbreaker?
maybe you want me for the ride.
What if I'm falling for a heartbreaker?
and everything is just a lie.
I won't be leaving here alive.
I might as well lay down and die.
I'm holding on with both hands and both feet
promise that you won't pull the rug out from under me.
I sat on the sofa and composed my thoughts, this was going to be hard.
"Alex I'm so scared to let you back in again. So scared of getting hurt, I know I wouldn't be able to go through all that a second time. It almost killed me when you told me you didn't want anything to do with me or the baby ever again. From that moment I thought I hated you and our baby. I blamed Jasper, and thought that if I didn't fall pregnant we would have still been together, and I decided that I wanted nothing to do with the life inside of me. I hated every moment of the pregnancy, and refused to care for our Son when he was born, choosing to go out, get drunk and sleep with the first man who I thought wanted me. Thankfully my family supported me through it all and Mum looked after Jasper as if he was her own. They were there when I needed them the most and never judged me or my actions. I can't say I'm proud of how I dealt with it all, but I didn't know what else to do and I didn't really have anyone to turn to. I know Mum would have been there for me, but she couldn't understand, her and Dad have always had a perfect relationship."
I burst into tears and felt his large muscular arms pull me into a hug.
"Oh Kay, I'm so sorry... I had no idea it was that hard. I never meant to hurt you, you have to believe me. I love you so much. If I could turn back the time, I would put you first in my life. I promise if you let me, I'm going to make it all go away." He said as he kissed the top of my head.
"I really want to believe you but I'm scared. It's not just me who's going to get hurt if you change your mind again, is it?"
"I'm here to stay Kay, why do you think I've wanted to see you and Jasper almost everyday? I feel like I am home when I'm with you both, I need you in my life. You have both accepted me back into your lives, and it's wonderful. You are such a fantastic Mother Kay. Jasper adores you and so do I. I never want to risk losing you and our Son again. I made such a mistake six years ago, I should never have said those words to you. Learning you were pregnant was a huge shock for us both and I dealt with it wrongly. I should have been strong for you, been there to support you and our Son. But I wasn't and I'm so sorry. Seeing how broken you were that night tore me to pieces and in that moment I swore I would do all I could to make it up to and earn your love again. Please forgive me, I'm sorry."
With tears cascading down both our faces I knew he meant every word and was truly sorry for what he had said and how he behaved, I didn't doubt him for a second. I loved him and couldn't imagine my life without him, I was willing to give him my heart again and trust him not to drop it. I lightly nodded, agreeing to forgive him. He gently lifted my chin upwards and paused for a moment as if unsure, before pulling me into a hungry, passionate kiss. Memory's flooded through my mind, our first kiss, the time we first time we made love. How good it felt to be in his arms again. Our kisses grew more hungry, desperate.
Our clothes slowly found their way onto the floor as we made our way to the bedroom. We spent the night wrapped in each others arms.
I woke up the next morning still in a blissful lust fuelled haze, reached out to find Alex's side of the bed empty... oh god he's changed his mind, I just know it. I was so foolish to believe he could change, be the person I needed him to be. I hurriedly got dressed, I needed to get out of here now. I needed to be at home. Alone.
As I rushed down the stairs and past the kitchen I could hear someone singing to themselves. I peeked my head around the door and to my surprise there he was... cooking breakfast. Relief flooded through me and then guilt for allowing myself to think like that, he was a changed man. I tiptoed into the kitchen, but one of the floorboards squeaked and alerted Alex to my whereabouts.
"Morning gorgeous, did you sleep well?" he said with a wink, knowing full well we hardly slept at all.
"Mmm... yeah if you could call it sleep." I said playfully as I wrapped my arms around him. "What's for breakfast?"
"Waffles with strawberries on the side, just how you like them." He replied as he pulled me close and kissed me.
Alex had been living with us for almost six months now, and we were only a week away from our first anniversary. He was a completely different person to the boy I knew, he was now a man and I loved him more than I thought possible. I now knew what Mum and Dad had, and I have loved every minute of us being a family. Jasper had been calling Alex Dad for about a month now and they both seemed so happy to have each other in their lives. They have been building a tree house together and spend every night out there drilling and banging when Jasper wasn't practising his lines for the show, the Talent Scouts were very impressed and offered JayJay the lead role. My little boy was becoming a star.
Our anniversary soon rolled round, I couldn't believe it had been a year already. Alex had kept to his promise and had made me and Jasper feel so lucky to have him in our lives. I had bought Alex a new Rolex watch and a Xbox. I had seen him looking around on the web for deals so I knew he would be happy with them. I really hope he's got me something nice, heavens know I'd dropped enough hints to what I wanted.
We had agreed to open our gifts after Jasper was in bed, so we sat and ate Dinner as a family, I made a salad as we had had a big Lunch. When we had finished Dinner we played a couple of board games before Jasper got his pyjamas on. I read him a story while Alex put the Dinner things in the dishwasher to be cleaned. After Jasper had fallen asleep I made my way downstairs to an empty Kitchen... where had Alex disappeared to?
As I headed into the Living room I spotted a note taped to the fridge, it said "Meet me in the treehouse." I let out a small laugh, tossed the note on the table and made my way out into the garden. I climbed the ladder and noticed the treehouse was lit up with tea lights, it looked so romantic.
Inside music was playing softly and there was a candle-lit table with a vase of Sunflowers and purple Gerberas, my favourite. I gasped when I saw Alex down on one knee with a ring box in his hand.
"What are you doing..?" I asked.
"Kayleigh.. I am so lucky to have you in my life, you are an amazing Mother and Girlfriend. Heaven knows I'm head over heels in love with you and I want everyone to know. I'm already the happiest man in the world, but it would make me so much happier if you would do me the honor of becoming my wife. I will totally understand if you weren't ready and said no. Kayleigh you are the only girl in the world for me, will you marry me?"
"YES Alex yes I will marry you." I said between sobs.
I was shocked, I hadn't the slightest thought that this was what he had planned, but it was the best anniversary present ever. I was engaged to the Man I wanted to spend the rest of my life with.
I want to say thank-you to Kitty for linking me the song "Heartbreaker" by P!nk, she was right, of course, it's perfect for Kay. <33>
Stay tuned for chapter 13 :D
Posted by strelitzia19 at 23:34
Welcome To The Stone Family Blog.
I would like to introduce you to my founder, Jenna Stone and her husband Claude Stone.
Jenna's traits are:
Her favourite's include:
Jenna is an artistic person, and can always be found painting her worries away. She wants a big family, she say's a home filled with laughter is the place to be. When she isn't painting she can be found either out in the garden or at the library reading. Being Eco-friendly she likes to recycle, take quick showers and just generally take care of the planet. She still remembers the first day she met Claude like it was yesterday. He was walking past as she left the library, and her being the bookworm that she is had her head stuck in her favourite book and bumped into him. Claude caught her and as their eyes met they instantly felt the attraction towards one another, and from that day they never left each others side.
Claude's traits are:
His favourites include:
Claude is very athletic, most days he can be found working out at the gym or with his family.He is also very charismatic and loves to make friends and meet new people. He is very career orientated and because he is a schmoozer he makes friends with colleagues very quickly. He is very family orientated and would love 4 or 5 children. He has always wanted a large family and never thought it would be possible until he met Jenna. He and Jenna were engaged within 6 months of meeting, they had a whirlwind romance and neither could imagine life without the other.
What will the future hold for the Stone's.