6 Feb 2011

Gen 3 - Chapter Nine: A Second Chance?

I only managed to get maybe two steps into your apartment before you started to cry and started to speak about how you were sorry about the baby, my first thought was that you were talking about our baby, but I remember seeing you that day in the park, heavily pregnant and then you said my name and I heard your heart shatter as you burst into tears all over again. I couldn't bare to see you in so much pain, knowing I was the cause of it all. If only I hadn't been such a jerk. I was scared, of what I don't know. Maybe becoming a Father, I really don't know, I don't want to make excuses because I know nothing could excuse my behaviour and the way I treated you.

I watched as you cried yourself to sleep on the sofa, not daring to say or do anything incase I upset you further. I waited until your soft snores could be heard before I carried you to bed. I laid you on your bed, gently kissed your forehead as I apologised and wrote you a note before rushing out of your apartment.



The only thing I can remember after getting on my bike are the bright white headlights coming straight towards me, my head hitting the ground, and then darkness.

The next time I woke up was a month later, and I was in Hospital, surrounded by my Brother and his Wife, Kitty. From that point on everytime I closed my eyes all I could see was your tear-stained face and it killed me a little bit more everytime. I knew then that the man I was was a dick, and no where near good enough to deserve you. I had to change, prove I could be the one to make you happy and never let you down again. I want to get to know our son and the Woman and Mother you have become, I don't want to miss another moment. I have missed out on too much already, and it was all my own fault for allowing it to happen.

Once I was strong enough to come home I enrolled at the local Fire station, my Granddad had been a Firefighter and I had always looked up to him. He was such a great, wonderful Husband, Father, and Grandfather and always loved his job. I used to love listening to his stories about the lives he saved and fires he put out. I knew that it was the sort of job I could be happy doing, of course it wasn't easy, but I was determined and with that alone I passed all the tests needed to become a Firefighter.

I had only been in the job for a few months when the alarm went off and the address was faxed through, as soon as I saw it was your apartment I was ready and in the truck on the way faster than I had ever been before. I couldn't lose you again. My boss was shouting the orders as I rushed up the stairs, I had to get you out. I found you lying on the floor in a young boys room.

My colleague carried you safely outside while I gently picked the boy up from his bed, as I came out of his room your TV exploded and we were thrown backwards. The flames were licking at the bedroom door, I braced myself and shielded the boy from the flames as best as I could before pushing my way through towards your front door. As I was making my way down the stairs I heard another explosion come from your apartment, I had gotten myself and the boy out just in time. I made sure I was careful while carrying him, as he was still sleeping heavily, from the amount of smoke he inhaled. It wasn't until I got a good look at his face that I realised he had my nose and my eyes. He was my Son.

As I kicked the main entrance door open I saw you come running over, my heart could have exploded right then and I wouldn't have cared, you were both safe. I pushed my helmet visor back while you were crying and saying thank-you, but you didn't notice that it was me. It wasn't until I asked if Jasper was my Son that you saw me, and you smiled at me. Relieved that he was OK, how I had missed your smile, it never failed to make my heart skip a beat. You always brightened a room whenever you smiled and make the darkest of days radiant.

You stood beside me while our Son was being checked over by the Paramedic, and although he had to spend tonight in Hospital you stayed strong, never broke down once. I admired your courage, as I was such a mess inside, realising how close a call it had been. I don't think I could have continued living if you had both perished in that fire.

I sat in the corner of the room watching while you both slept, you draped over our Son. It was such a beautiful sight. I had butterflies in my stomach, the same butterflies from our first kiss. I had never stopped loving you, hurting you was and always will be my biggest mistake. I regretted every single word that came out of my mouth that day when you told me you were pregnant, I was such a jerk back then.

I know I should have gone after you, but I didn't know where to start, or what to say to make it right again. I could have had it all, a good job, my own family but, most importantly, you. But I don't think back then I deserved another chance, but I'm hoping you can give me that second chance now and allow me to make it up to you. I promise I will put all I have to give into never hurting you again Kayleigh. You and Jasper are my world, I can see that now. I know it should have always been like this but I was so foolishly stupid. I lost you once, I'm not willing to lose either of you again. I would gladly do anything you ask just to prove how much I mean what I say.

As I heard the words tumble from your mouth I knew it was my own fault and I didn't for one minute blame you for saying no, after all I don't think I could forgive myself, so how could I expect you to do something I couldn't. Then when you said you would still allow me to be a part of Jasper's life, and that maybe we could be friends I knew I had to spend every minute I had with the two of you making things right. I would make you fall in love with me again.



Stay tuned for chapter 10 <3

22 comments:

buckeygirl80 said...

WOW. What a change! I'm so happy that Alex had a wake up call, and wants to make things right, especially getting to know his son.
I think it's a little naive on his part to think that she is the same person he rejected so long ago, Kay's been through so much, and it's affected and changed her. I think all for the better, but still. I think before Alex should think about wanting to be with Kay like that again, he should realize that she may not be exactly who he thinks she is.
Of course, that's nothing that time couldn't fix. I think once he gets to know her better, he'll see that she's even more of the person that he already thought she was. :)
Such a great chapter! LOVE!

Kittycattylion said...

my eyes.. they watered.. so. much.

"I would make you fall in love with me again."
GO, ALEX!!! GOOOO!!!!

strelitzia19 said...

@ buckey - I agree, they definitely need to learn who they are now compared to back then. They are now two both very different, more mature people. :D

Dawww kitty, I didn't mean to make you cry *hugs* <3333

Sleeping Zazzers said...

What an emotional chapter! I would never of though Alex still loved her. And I absolutely LOVED it!!! :D

lovethecurry said...

Woah! I was waiting for this update all day! And I loved it! I think it's very realistic. Because nobody would forgive that easily what Alex did. I am ever so glad that he's a changed person though. And that he really wants to be a part in their life, and work hard for what he once took for granted. Go Alex!

M.J. said...

Loving the story so much ^^. I wonder if she would accept him back.

Jojo777 said...

Wow! I'm glad Alex has changed, but still not sure Kayleigh should give him that second chance. He basically messed up her life and sent her down a really, really bad path. I'm excited to see what happens next though!

Duskwood Legacy said...

Oh my money is on the fact that she will accept him back.


Such a beautiful update *sniff*

Duskwood Legacy said...

Of course...if they did get together and she fell pregnant again you just know that's going to freak her poor head out all over again!

Oh Alex please be careful if she lets you in hr heart again!

Thea said...

I am so glad he has finally realised how much he screwed up. And good for Kay not letting him in right away. I think he has a lot of making up to do but I know he can do it :D

jen said...

Oh my goodness, I actually got goosebumps reading this! It was amazing and so romantic coming from Alex's POV. You are such a great writer. :) I hope they get back together now. I really think Alex is truly sorry for what he said to her all those years ago. ^.^

Now as for the missing comment box on my new blog, I tried to figure it out but can't seem to. I messed with the comment setting but the dang box still won't show up. I don't understand it. It sucks that you can't leave comments on it, but I'm not sure what else I can do. :( Also, I emailed you the link to Hunter, but not sure if I uploaded him in the correct file format on mediafire. I'm such a nOOb, lol. :P

<3

strelitzia19 said...

Thanks for the comments guys :D

@ Maui - I get what you're saying, a baby would be a massive thing, and that would be where he really needs to prove to her that he's not going anywhere. I guess only time will tell what happens to them. Alex definitely has a lot of making up to do, by being the best Father and friend he can be.

@Jen - Awww Jen thank-you <333 Lets hope he is sorry and tries his hardest to prove that he is a different man, and worthy to be in her's and Jasper's life now.

I just downloaded Hunter, it's the right file, will try him out later in game, maybe even let my simself get a hold of him ;)

starling68 said...

Awwwwww <3
I'm glad Alex is a changed man, and I really hope he manages to get Kayleigh to love him again.

Great chapter! :)

Aussie Karima said...

~ Kim,this was heart wrenching, I cried & cried,& that was before the song "The Reason"which I must say fitted the story,to a 'T'!
~ I hope Alex means what he says(I have a feeling that what she said that night riped him to shreds,& hence the accident,he actually had his epiphany before the accident!His personal wake-up call hit him twice!)
~ I am so glad,something good came out of that very messed-up night!
~ The hardest part for him is to gain trust,just to be allowed in his sons life!
~ And to prove that he is not going to run away at the first sign of trouble,to stand by them & protect them,& when he is allowed, to love them,as he always has,but knew he was not good enough!
~ This will be a learning curve for all three,as they are but strangers,they need to get to know each other all over again,& his son,to know him for the first time,to learn share his mother!
~ Loved it,you wrote this with a lot of feeling!Thanks Kim!(",)

Fawnester said...

I remember that for a while Jasper was warming to his Grandmother, Kay had to work hard and win him back. Now Alex will, have to do the smae thing. And Kay will need to know when to back off and when to swoop in. Alex needs time to get his son and Kay to understand who he is now, and how different he is. Jasper who is meeting him for the first time knows hime only by Kay's stories of him which have been filled with hate and betrayal. However, Kay certainly has not been showing her best side to him (drunk, scared, ect.)but then again he is being blinded by love and guilt.

I wonder if Trent will come back. Soon he'll feel horrible because he yelled so much.

Now that I think about it the love from young adult to young adult by this generation has only truley been shown by Alex to Kay

Jillyson said...

How in the world did you get me to root for Alex???

It was so wonderful to see Kayleigh pull herself together when we all thought she was a lost cause, and now it looks like Alex did the same. Redemption is such a wonderful thing, and you made it more so.

I also loved that she kept him at arms distance, making sure to keep back and let him know his son, but I love more that he's vowed to in her back!

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Hugzies said...

You did have a little slice of happy for Kay! Its her teenage dream come true! I think she is right to be a bit guarded tho, she has been through so much. Alex you better prove you deserve this!!

Fraternal Hero said...

lovely chapter <3 Go Alex!!! <3

Quan-Kun said...

What a change!? Wow, it seems like Alex finally has his head on straight. Or at least it "seems" that way. Some people will say anything to get what they want. Only time will tell I suppose. Great chapter. :)

Valpre said...

Kim, what a wonderful, wonderful update. It was great getting inside Alex's head, and knowing what's in his heart. You did such a fantastic job portraying his emotions. But I still don't like Alex. Sorry, I know he's a good guy now, but the hurt and pain he put Kayleigh through, it will take a lot more than words for him to win me over to his corner.

He almost destroyed her life, she missed out on the first few months of her son's life, because she was trying to play catch up with her own teenage life; her actions put her family under a lot of strain, and for a while JayJay didn't have a mom because Kay was hurting from the mess Alex had left behind.

Like Quan-Kun said, only time will tell I suppose.

strelitzia19 said...

I had a feeling you would be the hardest to convert Val lol, but I totally understand why... I mean, Alex hurt Kay so bad it's going to take more than words to convince her he has changed and win her heart back :D

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