Gen 3 - Chapter Nine: A Second Chance?

I only managed to get maybe two steps into your apartment before you started to cry and started to speak about how you were sorry about the baby, my first thought was that you were talking about our baby, but I remember seeing you that day in the park, heavily pregnant and then you said my name and I heard your heart shatter as you burst into tears all over again. I couldn't bare to see you in so much pain, knowing I was the cause of it all. If only I hadn't been such a jerk. I was scared, of what I don't know. Maybe becoming a Father, I really don't know, I don't want to make excuses because I know nothing could excuse my behaviour and the way I treated you.

I watched as you cried yourself to sleep on the sofa, not daring to say or do anything incase I upset you further. I waited until your soft snores could be heard before I carried you to bed. I laid you on your bed, gently kissed your forehead as I apologised and wrote you a note before rushing out of your apartment.

Play Me!

The only thing I can remember after getting on my bike are the bright white headlights coming straight towards me, my head hitting the ground, and then darkness.

The next time I woke up was a month later, and I was in Hospital, surrounded by my Brother and his Wife, Kitty. From that point on everytime I closed my eyes all I could see was your tear-stained face and it killed me a little bit more everytime. I knew then that the man I was was a dick, and no where near good enough to deserve you. I had to change, prove I could be the one to make you happy and never let you down again. I want to get to know our son and the Woman and Mother you have become, I don't want to miss another moment. I have missed out on too much already, and it was all my own fault for allowing it to happen.

Once I was strong enough to come home I enrolled at the local Fire station, my Granddad had been a Firefighter and I had always looked up to him. He was such a great, wonderful Husband, Father, and Grandfather and always loved his job. I used to love listening to his stories about the lives he saved and fires he put out. I knew that it was the sort of job I could be happy doing, of course it wasn't easy, but I was determined and with that alone I passed all the tests needed to become a Firefighter.

I had only been in the job for a few months when the alarm went off and the address was faxed through, as soon as I saw it was your apartment I was ready and in the truck on the way faster than I had ever been before. I couldn't lose you again. My boss was shouting the orders as I rushed up the stairs, I had to get you out. I found you lying on the floor in a young boys room.

My colleague carried you safely outside while I gently picked the boy up from his bed, as I came out of his room your TV exploded and we were thrown backwards. The flames were licking at the bedroom door, I braced myself and shielded the boy from the flames as best as I could before pushing my way through towards your front door. As I was making my way down the stairs I heard another explosion come from your apartment, I had gotten myself and the boy out just in time. I made sure I was careful while carrying him, as he was still sleeping heavily, from the amount of smoke he inhaled. It wasn't until I got a good look at his face that I realised he had my nose and my eyes. He was my Son.

As I kicked the main entrance door open I saw you come running over, my heart could have exploded right then and I wouldn't have cared, you were both safe. I pushed my helmet visor back while you were crying and saying thank-you, but you didn't notice that it was me. It wasn't until I asked if Jasper was my Son that you saw me, and you smiled at me. Relieved that he was OK, how I had missed your smile, it never failed to make my heart skip a beat. You always brightened a room whenever you smiled and make the darkest of days radiant.

You stood beside me while our Son was being checked over by the Paramedic, and although he had to spend tonight in Hospital you stayed strong, never broke down once. I admired your courage, as I was such a mess inside, realising how close a call it had been. I don't think I could have continued living if you had both perished in that fire.

I sat in the corner of the room watching while you both slept, you draped over our Son. It was such a beautiful sight. I had butterflies in my stomach, the same butterflies from our first kiss. I had never stopped loving you, hurting you was and always will be my biggest mistake. I regretted every single word that came out of my mouth that day when you told me you were pregnant, I was such a jerk back then.

I know I should have gone after you, but I didn't know where to start, or what to say to make it right again. I could have had it all, a good job, my own family but, most importantly, you. But I don't think back then I deserved another chance, but I'm hoping you can give me that second chance now and allow me to make it up to you. I promise I will put all I have to give into never hurting you again Kayleigh. You and Jasper are my world, I can see that now. I know it should have always been like this but I was so foolishly stupid. I lost you once, I'm not willing to lose either of you again. I would gladly do anything you ask just to prove how much I mean what I say.

As I heard the words tumble from your mouth I knew it was my own fault and I didn't for one minute blame you for saying no, after all I don't think I could forgive myself, so how could I expect you to do something I couldn't. Then when you said you would still allow me to be a part of Jasper's life, and that maybe we could be friends I knew I had to spend every minute I had with the two of you making things right. I would make you fall in love with me again.

Stay tuned for chapter 10 <3