22 Jan 2011

Gen 3 - Chapter Six: The Choices We Make.

Authors note: This chapter contains swearing.


I would never have THAT happen to me again! I was in control of my life. I would never have THAT happen to me again! I was in control of my life. I repeated the words over and over in my head. I heard the Doctor talking, but I didn't hear his words. I winced as the needle pierced my skin, injecting liquid sleep into my veins. My vision began to blur, and I felt somehow lighter. I knew that this was the right decision, it would all be over soon. I felt pressure on my shoulder, and then it was gone and I felt nothing.

I awoke with a start, I had had that same dream every night for the last week. My decision was haunting me. This time I had awoken before Trent's face had appeared. I balled my fist in frustration and slammed in onto the mattress. My stomach growled in fury, my diet of small meals and industrial strength painkillers was not going down well.

I climbed out of bed and opened the curtains, I saw the city sprawled out in it's pre-dawn gloom. Pain shot through my abdomen, I retched and ran to the bathroom. Time for more painkillers. I had taken the week off as personal time, and I had asked Mum if she wanted to have Jasper for a few days so I could do some redecorating. I knew it was a lie, but either she didn't notice or decided not to say anything.

After the pain had receded I put on some jogging bottoms and a warm jacket and took myself down to Mike’s Corner store. It was a 24 hour store, so I knew it would be open. I passed a man sleeping rough on an old bench. I told myself that I would treat myself to whatever I wanted and then I would give that poor Man my change. As I entered the store my face flushed from the heat, I grabbed one of their baskets on wheels and began to work my way around the aisles. I picked up this weeks girly magazines, today's paper, a Belgian chocolate and praline selection box, some biscuits, and some other minor nick-knacks. I payed for my purchases and made my way out of the store. I left the Hobo with all of my change, a couple of bags of crisps and today's paper, and went back to my apartment feeling like a very good person.

My day passed very peacefully. Just after three O'clock I received a text message from Trent. It said; Hey Babe, will be back 2nite. Not gonna have time 2 c u b4 show at bar. This week has been phat, got some sweet news. C u later, love you X. The hundred sentences I needed to say to him right then were totally not suitable for text message, so I sent back a standard 'excited about your news, and missed you loads' message.

Now that I knew I had to go out I also knew that I needed to wash, I ran myself a warm bath, making sure it was nice and bubbly. I took some more painkillers, put on a chill-out CD, and lit some scented candles, before lowering myself into the water. After my soak I popped some clean pyjamas on and tried to pick an outfit for this evening. If only I had an outfit which could tell Trent what I wanted to tell him, or did I even have to tell him? Would not telling the truth about something that I am not sure about his reaction to actually be better?

After more than an hour I settled for some three-quarter bottoms, my favourite comfy vest and a grey knit cardigan. I tried to find things to pass the time, but I had lost my interest. As I played out my conversation with Trent in my head I came to the conclusion that I did not need to put such unnecessary pressure on our fledgling relationship. That it was unfair to burden him with this knowledge. I couldn't stomach anything for dinner. I got changed, and ready. I grabbed myself a carton of juice from the fridge and took some more painkillers, and then hid the bottle, so that if Trent was to stay over he wouldn't see them.

As my taxi pulled up outside Waylon’s Haunt I paid the driver, and stepped out onto the path. The band had already started, I could hear one of their songs playing. I could hear the drum beats through the open front double doors. The air still smelt of Summer, I probably didn't need the cardigan. I said Hello to Anthony the doorman and made my way inside.

I waved at Trent as I made my way towards Maxine's table. She had just finished her drink, so I took off my cardigan and told her I was going to go get her another drink, and headed towards the bar. I pulled some money out of my purse and ordered a Coke for me, and a Double Vodka and Red Bull for Maxine.

My eyes wandered while my drinks were being poured, and then it was wrong, HE stood there with HIS stupid uniform and HIS stupid face, and HIS stupid in MY life. HE saw me and HIS face went from surprised to that flirty recognition in an instant. The moment I saw that smile I felt the new world that I was building around me shatter like broken glass.

And I ran.........

I slammed my apartment door behind me, I was breathless and enraged, and overwhelmed, and it was too much. I grabbed a glass and poured myself a neat Vodka and downed it. The taste shocked me back to my senses, I felt it burn as it slid down my throat. I screamed out loud in anger, and punched my fridge. I cried out in pain and poured myself another drink.

Half a bottle later and the intercom rang, I looked at the monitor, it was Trent. I buzzed him up without speaking, and refreshed my glass. I let Trent in and walked unsteadily back to my seat.


"Kayleigh, what happened?" He said. "I saw you run out of the bar, are you OK?"

"Oh Trent" I began "HE did this to me...that Bastard! I never wanted it to be like this. I had it planned different, but HE ruined it. I was gonna tell you, honestly. In my own time, but then HE showed up, and I don't know now."

"Kayleigh, you're not making any sense. Start from the beginning. First off, who is he? Secondly, what have you done?"

"HE is JayJay's Dad. HE now works in YOUR stupid bar. And HE is the reason why I had to."

"Why you did what?"

I could see concern spreading across his face as tears cascaded down my own.
"Why I got rid of IT, because you Men are all the same and I won't let you do this to me again. I'm not your doormat, and you should love me even if I am FUCKING pregnant! But I'm not, because you wouldn't."

"You're pregnant?"

"No" I exclaimed in frustration. "I got rid of it, so you wouldn't get rid of me."

"You stupid Bitch. How could you honestly think I would think or do that? Why are you punishing me for HIS mistakes? How could you have done this without having a conversation with me? I am a part of your life, and I had a right to know. In fact, I'm not, I was a part of your life. And NO, you're wrong...we aren't all the same. Some Men will treat you like shit, others would have done the right thing and stood by you, but I guess you'll never get the chance to find out, will you? You fucking murderer. "

Trent stood up and stormed out of the apartment, slamming the door so hard that it rebounded back open. I stood there shocked. He was right! I had ruined this for myself, and there was nothing I could do to make it better. I walked back to the kitchen and poured another drink.

I heard the intercom go again and ran over to it slamming the open button with my fist. I wanted a chance to make it right. I tried to clear my mind, but the heady mix of painkillers and alcohol was starting to affect my cognitive functions. I sat down heavily on the sofa and launched into my speech as soon as I saw a figure in the doorway...

"I'm sorry" I wailed "I'm sorry. I've been trying to work out all week how to tell you, but to try and tell you that I got rid of our baby, even thinking about it was one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. If I knew then what I know now, obviously I would have talked to you first. I was just so scared. It took me over a year to piece my life back together after Alex abandoned me, and I could not risk you doing the same."

I began to sob loudly, tears rolling down my cheeks and into my glass. I felt very light headed. I put my glass down and shut my eyes for just a second.

I felt as though I was moving, it was more awkward than flying, but easier than walking. Then I heard footsteps, followed by my door shutting...then a moment later or maybe two moments, I'm not entirely sure I heard an engine start and a motorbike roar off into the distance.



29 comments:

strelitzia19 said...

Sorry if this chapter doesn't make sense, or is a bit meh...I wasn't feeling to well last night when I wrote, but wanted to get it written while I had the words in my head. Anyway, I hope you all enjoy it :D

Duskwood Legacy said...

I thought it was wonderful and the ending leaves an interesting suspense.

Did Alex think she got rid of his baby when she was ranting?

Will Trent start to forgive her once he cools down? (It can't be easy being told you WERE about to be a father and now your not all in the space of two seconds.)

Poor Kayleigh I hope she does not turn to drink in an attempt to drown her pain.

Fantastic update.

Maui

strelitzia19 said...

I'm so glad that you got that it was Alex at the end, and not Trent...I was a little worried it may not have been clear enough. :D

It is such a huge thing to find out, especially after having such a fantastic week like Trent had. I'm not sure if he could forgive her, he was pretty mad and upset about it, and I think it's such a big deal. Something that shouldn't have been done on her own, she most definitely should have spoken to him about it first. :D

Valpre said...

Whoa!

I had a feeling Trent would be highly mad, but I didn't expect him to call her the 'b' word. Such a sad, heartbreaking chapter; and you've portrayed Kayleigh and Trent's emotions so well.

I don't like the idea of Alex showing up out of the blue; his presence can only mean trouble.

Cami said...

I knew Trent would be furious and am not surprised at all by his reaction. I wouldn't expect him to forgive her (although it would be nice for Kay of course lol). Such a sad state of affairs :(

And I suspected it was Alex at the end and not Trent...

Kittycattylion said...

O.O

Kittycattylion said...

"Did Alex think she got rid of his baby when she was ranting?"

^ my first hunch as well, but then I realized she said his name whilst speaking.

jen said...

Wow, this was great. Very dramatic and a little disturbing because of Trent's abusive language, but very realistic. It's like how a dude might react in real life to news like that.

Very well done, Kim! Once again, your story/legacy just gets better and better!! btw I think it's one of the best legacies around.

<3

Oh yeah, and congrats on winning that Tropical Bliss Modeling comp (cycle 1)!!!! I kept forgetting to tell you that... >.<

starling68 said...

Aw poor Kayleigh. :(
I honestly thought that Trent would have reacted better than that, but I expect that is how someone would react in real life to that sort of news.
And I hope that Alex's return does not cause any drama - that is the last thing Kayleigh needs right now!

Great chapter though! :)

Hugzies said...

I was afraid this would happen, I hope that Trent can forgive her but I really dont see how. Alex being at her place brings up alot of questions.

I cant wait to find out what happens.

Jojo777 said...

Aww, that was so sad! Though I really hope Alex doesn't shake everything up now, plus it's kinda creepy that he asked around and found out where she lives...

But poor Kayleigh, I really hope things get better for her!

Jillyson said...

*I put the wrong name in above post! Lol!

I thought it might've been Alex at the end. He did know she kept his baby, though, since she stayed in the same town and everything, right? He must know she was talking about Trent's baby.

How terrible for Kayleigh - I didn't think Trent would take it well, but I didn't think he'd go so far. Some people have a very firm stance on what she did, and since they never talked about it, she never found out his. Seeing as how she already had a baby on her own, he would assume he knew her stance.
What a tragedy!

I can't help but wonder what Alex was there for? Is it possible he reformed himself like Kayleigh did and wants to make things right? Hmmmm.
And I sure hope this is a one time thing and not the begining of a downward spiral for Kayliegh!

buckeygirl80 said...

Wow. It seems like pretty much every comment the last several chapters I wanna start out with 'Poor Kay'. But really..... Poor Kay! I had a feeling Trent would be really angry when he found out, as he should be. That was a decision he should have been in on. I don't know if he can forgive her or not, but honestly, I think that would be one of the biggest things in a relationship to try to forgive, so if he does, he's a saint! I don't know how I feel about Alex hearing what he did, I mean, I know Kay would NOT want Alex having that close of a look on her personal life, especially after all he put her through. OF course, who knows what has happened to Alex in the course of a year. I'm one of those people who always carries hope for the people who don't seem to deserve it, and I think maybe Alex could have changed over the course of a year, or if not yet, still could. Not that he and Kay necessarily need to be together, but you know.

Although the content breaks my heart, I still think it was a great chapter. :) <3

seaweedy said...

I feel just terrible for Kayleigh, she cannot seem to get away from heartbreak.

Aussie Karima said...

~ Hmm! Alex must have followed Trent to her door,he must have known working in the same bar that Trent is a regular performer in,that they were seeing each other!
~ I am not too sure she would be thrilled at knowing she was talking to the wrong man!
~ I hope she is OK,& was it Alex that checked on her?
~ I do not think Trent will forgive her,he loves children, if his relationship with her son is any indication to go by!
~ She is in a pickle!
~ Loved it BTW!(",)

ay2cee said...

OmO Well.. that was expected, yet unexpected..
Overall, it was greatly written, and though I can't say Trent's the type to yell such obscenities, then again, he just heard that Kay didn't tell him about their aborted child. As well as her blaming all men in general. After this, I can't look at Kay the same way. D=

Fawnester said...

Wow that was good.

Sheesh Trent! I think I know why he was mad, though. I think he was mad to have chased after her to only find out...that.

I wonder why Alex didn't come in. I guess because of what she said about him. I think he feels guilty. After all HE got her into this whole mess! If it weren't for him, she wouldn't have had the abortion, and Trent would be happy, excited even. Or she and Alex would have stayed together, in the first place. But when they got together her and Alex, I think that he just wanted a little bit of fun that he could get rid of when he felt like it! And when there was something to hold him down, a baby, he couldn't take it. He blew up.

But back to Trent, I think he loves kids so so much that the whole abortion idea just kills him.

lovethecurry said...

First off, I've been obsessively reading your blog for the past week, and I love this update. I do think it was all a bit rushed. The way she blurted out things that she should've said in a better way, so Trent's reaction is expected. I love that Alex's back. I'm a sucker for second chances, and I hope he's now interested in meeting his son, at last. I hope things do work out, mostly because I think Alex looks really hot, and would be sad to see him leave again. :(
Thanks to you, I might be starting my own legacy pretty soon. I'm still trying to figure out the story I want to tell, and how to take pictures, so I'm sure my blog will be a mess, but still I'm excited! Thank you! And please keep updating us! :)

Cowwie said...

As I red that with the music I honestly broke out in tears lol. I love your legacy! It's so awesome!

Cowwie :D

jen said...

I know I've already left a comment, but I must say even though Alex is a shit, wow did he look hot in this chapter.... his eyes especially.

:P

friendliellama said...

Oh..My god..

It kind of makes me mad at Trent for that, but even madder at Alex.

strelitzia19 said...

Wow, so many comments. Thanks all of you, means a lot knowing you all take the time to read and comment. I love knowing what you guys think of each update, and the speculations you all going on behind Alex's reasons for being there too lol. I am totally sympathetic with both Trent and Kayleigh given the situation, even though I do think Kay done the wrong thing by not talking to him I understand why she HAD to do it. Alex didn't know Kay was dating Trent, he had only just started working in the bar, so he was just as shocked as she was. Alex saw Trent run after Kay when she left the club and followed, hence how he knows where she lives. I'm not sure what it will do to him, hearing Kay say those things and knowing that it was all HIS fault. Hopefully he will realise what he done and at least apologise to her, not that an apology is in anyway acceptable for how he treated her.

I'm such a sucker for Alex, he is pretty damn hot! lol

@Jen, I know I just love his eyes too, and you be even more pleased to know that JayJay has his eye shape and colour :D

@lovethecurry, thanks for reading, always nice to see new faces. I totally encourage you to start doing your own legacy, if you want to. I will give you any help, if you need it don't hesitate to ask.

@cowwie, I'm sorry I didn't mean to make you cry. *hugs*

krazifyre said...

Oh my.

Rawla said...

Oh what a sad, emotional chapter.

Thea said...

I saw you updated the other day but I had a feeling it would be a sad one so saved it when I could really pay attention and oh boy I was right. Kay has had nothing but heartache and pain in her life and I am desperate for her to get to a place of happiness. She had her reasons for not telling Trent but oh how I wish she would have handled that differently. Poor JayJay, just getting used to a stable man in his life and now without a father figure again. I really hope it doesn't cause any lasting impact on him!

Fraternal Hero said...

O M Goodness! lol I really cannot wait for the next chapter to come out! I love this chapter and I love this entire legacy <3 ty for taking the time to write this up

Darius said...

This chapter was hot, and heavy cant wait for chpt 7 to come out

jen said...

I think I'm a sucker for Alex too... of course Trent is hawt as well.

HOT HOT HOT all of 'em

'scuse my craziness. >.>

Quan-Kun said...

Wow... Just wow... You express their emotions very well! I can totally understand Trent's reaction, but I must say; Alex's appearance could only mean mischief. More so, how did he even know where she lived?

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